I need to vent.

Sometimes I wish I didn't know anybody. Or I was the grumpiest person alive so nobody would want to socialize with me. I know it'd hurt me, but then at least I'd know that everybody else is happy.

I can't stand it when I somehow manage to make somebody else upset, whether it be by accident or if I sort of knew I was doing it (which I regret sooo much later). Even if I don't know the person, or would rather not be around them, it still hurts ME more in the end.

I always want to make everybody else happy, even if it makes me feel horrible and I wish I could change that, but I can't just stop caring.

I'm sort of mad at my mom for switching me out of my old school. I know if I didn't switch, I wouldn't be so upset all the time. I wouldn't be followed around by desperate guys or deal with the annoying sluts I sit and tolerate every day. I wouldn't have to deal with the complete obnoxiousness or immaturity.

My old school was never this bad. I've never had so much drama in my life. And I know it's mean, but I partly blame my mother. If I was still at my old school, my life would be a little less stressful.

Why does everything have to be so complicated ALL the time?

moo.

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RIP Baby. <3


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